it's been a little more than a month since I last posted a journal, so I guess I should update it. Plus, I'm doing all I can to procrastinate on work since I haven't been in the brightest spirits lately. Look out for incoherent ramblings ahead!
You know that super lonely depressed feeling you get after your friends leave after having spent the night with you? I've been feeling like that a lot recently. I'm so tired of school and I really just want to go home. I miss my friends and family and pets. I want to sleep in my own bed and eat real food and do art and read for fun. These last two weeks are just going to drag on forever, I just know it.
So, here's what the remainder of my semester looks like:WEEK 1
Monday: ANSC review, ENTO class, CHEM class, another ANSC review
Tuesday: CHEM lab final, Chem lab final paper due (not started btw) HORT final, ENTO lab final
Wednesday: ANSC test 4 (not the final!) ENTO class, CHEM class
Thursday: No more HORT class since the final's on tuesday. study day(aka slack off). CHEM tutoring.
Firday: No ANSC lab, CHEM class. My parents are coming up to get my fridge and some other stuff I don't need so I will be able to pack everything else into my car when it's time for me to go.
Sat/Sun: study(aka slack off) CHEM tutoring.Week 2
Monday: ANSC review? class? (not entirely sure if I even have class this day.) ENTO class, CHEM class, CHEM tutoring.
Tuesday-Thursday: Fuck all. all classes are over. it's "dead week". Finals start friday. Must attempt to study.
Friday: ANSC final from 10-noon. the rest of the day is for pretending to be studying.
Sat/Sun: more studying and CHEM tutoring.Week 3
Monday: ENTO final from 8 to 10 am. CHEM tutoring.
Tuesday: CHEM final from 10:30 to 12:30. after this, I am free.
It really doesn't seem that bad when I lay it out like this, but when chemistry is taking up every waking moment of your life, it's very strenuous. I am so done with chem. I have Online Written Labs (OWLs for short) due tonight that I haven't even attempted. OWLs are like homework problems, but a million times worse. I haven't tried to complete all of them for the past month, ever since I got back from spring break. why? because when you go to chemistry class every day, and all the tutoring sessions which occur 3 times a week (and are an hour long just like the class, so it's like I'm going to chem class six times a week) and you try to follow along the explanation from the OWL problem when it tells you what you did wrong, and you still
don't understand it, and can't get it right no matter how many times you try and do it just like they say, it just really takes away your confidence and motivation. I have not been able to clearly follow along with the class for the past two tests. It's obvious I must have missed something important early on, but it's kinda too late to relearn it now when the final test is only a week away. we're finally moving on to new stuff so there's a little hope for me, but if we start tying it to the things we "learned" in previous lectures I'm hopeless. All in all, I'm not trying anymore because I know I'm too far gone to make a difference in my grade now. And I'm alright with this. I know it's not practical to rely on a curve, but I know there will be one. But even if my final grade is still an 'F' I'll be insouciant to it all. I just want it all to be over.
And then there is summer.
I'm going to be taking a summer class. Organic chemistry
. what fun! I also might get an internship at the zoo. Now that
I'm looking forward to. My interview is in May, and I'm just waiting to hear back from them.
Now, I want to talk with my watchers a bit about commissions. ever since I got a DD on this: [link]
I have been asked if I do trades, requests or commissions. I've seriously been thinking about doing commissions of these little icons, but there's only one problem; I've never done formal commissions before. So my question to my watchers is this- does anyone have any advice on handling commissions? I've already got a few basic things in mind like:
-only taking on five (probably even less) commissions at a time because of my work load this summer.
-only using paypal because I loathe the DA point system with a passion
-pricing: I'm thinking on charging a dollar for every hour worked on an icon. for the one above, it took me around ten hours of drawing and animating to finish, but keep in mind this was the very first icon I made. I plan to practice and make a few more as tests to see how long on average it takes me to finish one. In the end, I plan to set a fixed price, no matter how long it takes me to finish an avatar, hopefully no more than ten dollars, but possibly aiming around $7.
Does this seem fair? Please tell me your concerns or advice or any questions you may have.
- the ceiling light in my dorm has gone out and my roommate and I are stuck in eternal darkness until the hall staff come to fix it. it's really straining my eyes.
- I've never wanted a puppy so much in my life right now, but I know I do not have the means to care for one at the moment.