Winter Blues

In exactly one month I will walk the stage with my first bachelor's degree. I don't have much else to say about that, really...

On the other hand it's been really cold up here as of late. We've hit freezing temperatures more than once in only the short space of a week. Today was beautiful, though, with temperatures in the high 60s. I'm glad it's been a little warmer because I think the cloudy grey skies we've had recently were starting to make me depressed. I remember waking up Sunday morning and thinking "Oh, I feel sad today. Okay." Then again, my drab dorm walls may have a part to play.

I've been having this weird "lump in throat" sensation for the past week. I believe it first started two Saturdays ago, when I went home for the weekend, but it's been bothering me ever since and it hasn't developed into any sickness from what I know of. I looked it up on google and found out that this feeling actually has a scientific name; the "globus sensation". I also learned that this can be caused by anxiety, which is weird because I'm not anxious about anything right now, only apathetic. Luckily it hasn't interfered with my ability to eat or drink, but it HAS made sleeping difficult because I need to position my head in a way so I don't feel it, but that head position may not be comfortable for sleeping. >:/ Thank god my first class on monday and wednesday were canceled this week, allowing me to sleep in late, but I don't know what I'll do from friday on out. I'm just hoping this sensation will go away on its own. I'm pretty convinced the only reason I'm feeling it is due to the fact that I'm paranoid and thinking about it is, in turn, triggering it.

In other news I passed round 2 of the Reset OCT and will now battle it out in round 3. My competitor is going to be tough to beat. Wish me luck~

In other other news I'm setting myself up to volunteer at the Zoo again over Christmas break. I'm excited to go back~

And here's a short list of all the assignments I have to finish and turn in by friday:
1)Entomology Group Project and Report (actually due monday, but if I don't due it now, I never will)

I wish I could say I feel guilty for putting all of this off for so long, but I don't. I just feel... nothing, actually. I even feel apathetic about my apathy and that's just sad. I currently feel most motivated to write or make comic pages, but as soon as I grab a pencil and paper I just loose all ambition, sigh in insouciance and roll on the floor like a blasé heap of trash. This semester has gone on for too long, I tell you.

Lastly, as it has become customary for me to do so in these journals, I want to just talk about my random obsession of the week, though I wouldn't really call this one an obsession. Rather, I've been feeling incredibly nostalgic and reminiscing about it to a degree that, quite frankly, really surprises me. Never would I have thought I would find myself feeling sentimental about this and I just don't know WHY. What do YOU think I'm about to talk about? Go on, take a guess. I'll bet anything you'll get it wrong. Go ahead. Really. Think of something. Humor me.









If you guessed the Disney Channel Cartoon: Kim Possible then you my friend are a mind reader. It's so weird. Not the show, but my thoughts towards it. Of all the things from my childhood I currently want to relive, why this show? Hell, I just finished rewatching the entirety of Avatar: The Last Airbender. I don't know why my brain wants to rewatch Kim Possible next. My only reasoning is because I had a dream about the characters after watching MLP reviews from the youtuber ILoveKimPossibleAlot which made me think of them. Frankly, if I could feel anything more than indifference at the moment I'd probably be embarrassed to admit this on the internet, and yet my mood towards the whole thing is like an out-of-body experience and I find it fascinating at the same time.

I did not hate this show as a kid. I would watch it if my sister was watching it, or if there was nothing else good on at the moment. I am NOT ashamed to admit that I played all the games based off the show on the disney channel website. And hell, I still know all the words to the full-length theme song and "naked mole rap". (Oh, radio Disney, how you are forever branded in my brain as a significant cornerstone of my childhood.) But much like my current attitude, I just didn't care about it then. I knew the characters were voiced by (a lot of famous people, actually) like the girl from Even Stevens, Raven from "that's so raven", the lady who plays bart simpson, that one guy who does the voice of Bender from futurama and Jake the dog from Adventure time, and that other guy who does Joe from Family Guy and Kronk from the Emperors New Groove.

If anything, the only thing I didn't like about the show was the lingo. NOBODY TALKED THAT WAY IN THE EARLY 2000s, DISNEY. And BOY do I certainly remember when Lilo and Stitch the Series was having a midlife crisis where they had crossovers of EVERY OTHER DISNEY CARTOON AT THE TIME AND KIM POSSIBLE WENT TO HAWAII. oh man, were those some awkward episodes. That's totally the fault of Lilo and Stitch, and not KP btw. What other crossovers did they do? Let's see.. there was Proud Family, and American Dragon Jake Long. Wikipedia also says they did a crossover with Disney's Recess, but I can't recall. Really, Disney? fucking Recess? I'm glad I don't remember that one.

I'm getting off track. Rewatching this cartoon, I must say I really like the animation. It's so fluid and expressive, I just love it. I also love the character dynamics, especially how Ron and Kim work together and all of Kim's family. While this show does have too much cartoon logic for me to take it seriously at most times, it's still got good morals and a charm I don't see much in today's cartoons. (then again, I stopped watching most animated cartoons on Disney and Nickelodeon for my own sanity's sake). Let's admit it, at one point we all wanted our ring tone to be that signature 4 beep tone, and I'm willing to bet at one point we knew someone who DID have it as their ring tone. Good times, man, good times. Fun Fact: Kim Possible was Disney's Longest running cartoon with 87 episodes and two movies, until it was surpassed by Phineas and Ferb. 

Well, that's all that's on my mind right now. I'm going to try and motivate myself to do homework. Stay warm, friends~